Lets start with a friend telling me that my ex started dating someone she works with. I always had this thought in the back of my mind and figured this was part of the reason we broke up. I have nothing to back this up, or do I want anything. But for some reason hearing my ex has started dating again, put my head into a weird state. I haven’t talked to my ex in months. I thought we were going to be friends, but apparently that didn’t work out, which is probably for the best. Anyways this all bring me to last night, in which a crazy dream ensued. The dream starts with me showing up at her apartment, and we start fighting. We are yelling and swearing at each other, then some how the fight moves outside to the parking lot. After what seems like a long time things start to calm down, and we end up back in her apartment.  We made up and we were back together again.  Then I wake up. This fight was like one straight out of a movie, except I was fighting with my own imagination.  I was fighting as myself against an ex who I was creating dialog for.  I know its crazy.

I found myself thinking about this dream today, wondering if I was going insane.  Thats how real the dream felt. I have thought about contacting her, but I don’t know that that is a good idea.  I know how our relationship was and its something I don’t want to go through again.  But I do miss having a person in my life, a person I feel is all about me, and will be there for me.   Oh well life moves on.  Hopefully I don’t have the same dream again, or I will really think I am going insane.

Friday: After work I stalked Steve, then followed him back to his house where thinks got a little weird. Ok not really but while there someone posted a link to a craigslist missing connection post that was for me. The blond from Phreaknic really did think I was cute. Then Brian and I headed to the ACM Halloween party, where I spent $10 dollars for tickets and didn’t win a damn thing. Left about 10:30, hit the sack about 2am.

Saturday: Got up around 10am, headed to The.Narro.ws around 2pm. Stalked Steve a little more at CompUSA. We both tried to buy something and the price was wrong. Every time I go into that place the prices are wrong. Anyways I finally left Steve alone, and went to the.narro.ws. Played around with some computer stuff, then left to pick up Kerri about 6pm. We had dinner at some Mexican place with Matt, Kat, Bob, Kensey, and Conrad. Then Wal-Mart where she stole some glasses, and we took way to long looking at snacks. After Wal-Mart we both went stalking Steve at his house. Anyways the party was good, but I didn’t have that great of a time as Kerri decided Brian was way more intersting. But really I had made up my mind about her earlier that evening. Once I dropped her off I found out she left her coat, so I have to see her at some point to give it back. All in all it was an OK day.

Sunday: I was lazy all day. So lazy in fact I didn’t even put on socks, or walk outside. I just sat in from of the tv/computer all day. Installed Leopard and got caught up on TV shows. Great day of doing nothing worth wild. I loved it.

“I like you. I love you But I am not in love with you”  -Kim

First, I wanted to say that I have been seeing an awesome girl by the name of Kim. Thought you all might want to know that since this post is about playing poker with some of her friends.
So last night Kim and I want to play poker with some of her friends. What a great time I had, and what a great way to lose $3. Her friends were really cool people. Just hanging out drinking playing cards, it doesn’t seem special but its far better than the drama that used to be my ex’s friends. So needless to say, I liked hanging out with these people and they really made me feel like I fit in. Anyway on to the poker game. I bet everything I had which wasn’t much on 2 pair or 3′s and 5′s or something small like that, and was beat by 3 of a kind. So there I sat, chipless, and feeling like a looser. But I helped Kim stay in the game, to the end. She finished 3rd. She just sat there folding on like everything. She did a great job. The only think I wish is that my tumour wasn’t killing me and that I would have felt a lot better. All in all I had a wonderful time, and can’t wait to win my money back. Thanks Babe. **KISS**

I am starting to think I have a brain tumor. I have had a hardback for 3 days now. It is on the back of my head a little above my neck. I have been thinking it was just that i turned my neck wrong, and its actually my neck and not my head that hurts. But I’m starting to think I’m wrong. It does seem to get worse when I move by head it a certain direction….so again…could be the neck. I don’t know but if it keeps up, I will have to go see someone about it.

Women are crazy. One tells me she just wants to be friends, we all know how that always works out. Then another one tells me its not practical to have a relationship right now, cause she is moving, and also she doesn’t want to gang out with me cause she thinks she might do something she doesn’t want to I don’t get this, none of this…I guess its just the games that they play.