On my way home tonight I started to think about relationships. I realized what I want in a relationship. I want all the lovey dovey stuff, but what I really want more than anything if for someone to show they care about me. It’s easy to do, just send a text message, a myspace commit, call, anything, just do it before I do. Something so simple, if huge for me. It’s the greatest feeling in the world for me. A couple of weeks ago, there was someone who was doing this. She would send a text saying good morning, this made my day. Seriously. Now lately I don’t know whats been going on with her, but it seems as though yet again I have screwed something up. I don’t know. Maybe I’ll try to talk to her tomorrow.

Oh by the way, Lauren is sick. I have been debating if I should tell her to get well soon, or just leave her be. I noticed my rss reader picked up a new blog entry of hers (guess I forgot about having that rss feed) she seems really down. I am too nice of a guy to let her think no one cares. So Lauren I hope you get well soon, and if you want to talk you know how to get a hold of me.

So I walked into the UC tonight, and who do I see. Well thats the thing, I see a girl waving at me, but I didn’t know who it was. Then i realized it was Lauren. I had no idea, this is a girl I saw everyday for over a year, and with in 2 months she changed so much I didn’t know her. So I looked at some pictures from facebook, and yep she has changed. Also its crazy that her new guy looks like a bigger version of me. Someone told me that tonight. Anyway, as far as feelings go. There were none, but that could be cause I didn’t recognize her.

So last night I was chatting with Amber. We were talking about “us”, and how she will be moving at the end of July. I knew this when I found out she liked me, and before I made any decisions I had to do a lot of thinking. I came to the decision that I wanted to have a relationship with her, she wanted that also. So we decided we could get serious if it came to that, but we would always keep her moving in the back of our minds. This is all well and good, except for the fact that I have felt like she has been ignoring me. I don’t get women, they are strange and bizarre creatures. By the way I was just checking out Lauren’s myspace profile and noticed she has changed her status to “in a relationship”. You would think after over a month, news like this might not hurt, and it didn’t hurt the other night when we were chatting about it online. But it is harder to see her status change knowing that it is not me she is in a relationship with, and knowing that my hopefully upcoming relationship my not last long.

Oh shut up ackis. I guess I will not be installing pcanywhere 11 again. Last night I tried this and guess what, it screwed up my registry. So from about 9pm-3am I tried to fix it, then from about 9am-2pm I reinstalled windows. What a great way to spend a weekend. Although it didn’t piss me off that much, it was about time to reinstall anyways.

Ok I have another thing on my mind. It’s women. Why do they make us work for them? Why do we have to play games with them? Can’t we as humans just tell each other our feelings? Wouldn’t this be much easier? I think so. But this is not how we play, we have to play their games. Although their games are strange and complicated, we must play. Why is this?

So I finally got a SSH Tunnel set up and working.  So everything that goes through the browser is encrypted.  With this new job, I think they may actually watch the network, and I don’t like the idea of my traffic being watched.  So now they cant see it…he he  Well anyway, it’s off to the 2600 meeting tonight, then to the anti-V-day/housewarming party over at Honey’s, Cherry’s and Mog’s  Should be fun, well at least I hope so.  This will be the first time in a while I’m going to go out and not care what Lauren is doing for the night.  Although we did spend a little time together today.  It was weird cause, everything was the same when we used to hang out, except we didn’t touch each other, like couples do.  So maybe we’re cool and can hang out and stuff.  Well back to work.

ttfn