I was standing at the head of the line in Karate class when our instructor got a call.  It had finally happen, a very good friend of mine had passed away.  We all knew it was going to happen, she had been on life support for months, but I remember my heart dropping to the floor.  We had became really good friends over the months before her aneurysm.  I remember we used to ride our bikes home from Karate class.  Those were the times.  The last time I saw her as her normal self was doing just that riding out bikes home.  The next morning is when she had the aneurysm, but it wasn’t until a few days later I found out what had happen.  I had not seen her at school so I went and found her best friend who informed me she was in the hospital in very serious condition.  The aneurysm happened right before Halloween, but she was in a coma until November 20th, at which time her parents took her off life support and died at 6:52pm I believe.  I do know that her parents donated her organs which is awesome.  So maybe there are still parts of her living on.   I wonder what ever happen to Jay and Beth,  I know they got divorced, and Beth was still shaken up over Jessica’s death for years afterwards, but I would still like to say hi to them.  Anyways ten years later and Jessica is still a big part of my life.  I don’t think about her everyday, but I have made her birthday part of my everyday life.

I will always love you Jessica Scott.  You where the one person I wanted to be friends forever with and never got the chance.  I hope you had a great time in out little city of Schofield Wi

So Friday was my birthday. It was all of a normal day, School, Work, 2600 meeting, Bring Popcorn, then home. Have you ever looked back at your life. I mean like on your birthday or Christmas or New Years or something. Look back, and think about what you did a year before, or 5 years before on that very day. Well I have to say, when I look back, last year I saw myself happy and loving spending time with a special someone. I can’t seem to remember much about my birthday 5 years ago, but 6 years ago was when I got my drivers license. Also I remember meeting a girl by the name of Beverly (wow would be cool to talk to her again). Some birthdays stick out, some are rather normal. I have gone through 22 now, and hopefully 22 more will follow. But throughout those 22 birthdays, I can’t say for sure one was better than another. Life moves at rapid speeds, should we reflect of the past or just live life as it is dealt. I have yet to figure this out. Just living life with the hand your dealt is great, but in doing so do you miss out, do you miss out of things that need to be planned? Do you miss out on life because you haven’t looked back and decided how to deal with certain problems? But here is the real question, do you really want to know the answer to these questions?

So I think i figured out why your not suppose to bite your nails. While in the process of doing that I chipped my front tooth. Yay for me right. Its weird when something so small changes in your mouth, you can’t seem to keep your mind off it. Anyway on to subject two.

I just got off the phone with someone. Some of you may know who I am talking about, if you don’t, well it doesn’t really matter, cause its game over for me. Which I saw coming. Its like when you are playing a game and only have 2% health left, you know the game is over, it is just a matter of when. Well I’m dead. I hit the “we are better friends” ball. Although it wasn’t put in those exact words, but I knew what was meant. Oh well, its not the first time and probably not the last.

As I stated in an earlier post, I like playing the games girls play, well I like playing them while I think they might lead to something better. But usually they don’t. Then you are stuck with a lighter wallet, and some memorable moments. But other than that, you have nothing……ok during the course of this post I have found out that maybe the games are not completely over, they just need to be played differently…now comes the choice do I keep playing or just let the games subside and see what happens. But as some of you who read this know I won’t stop.

A friend of mine made a post on his blog not to long ago. It stated his track record with women, and why he now has so many rules. I have a feeling this post was pointed at me, if not oh well, it still got my attention. Anyway, reading his post I realized what I was doing, but you know what I didn’t care. Maybe it’s just who I am, but I think it might be the girl. Either way I probably won’t stop playing what ever games she wants to play.