by Nathan on Oct.06, 2009
Over the past couple of weeks, I have been hanging out with this girl. The first time we went out, we had a great time. That great time turned into pretty much a weekend of great times. The only problem with this was that she was still in love with her ex. Which I can understand, being this was someone she was with for 4 years. We continued to hang out even though she met up with her ex multiple times, each time she felt terrible about herself and knew she had screwed up. I really thought this girl was cool, and probably not always so crazy about things. So I stuck around, trying not to let myself think we had anything more going on than we did. Apparently even that she read too much into and started pushing me away. Until a final blow out in which the truth came out.
During these final moments I could see she wasn’t really as cool as I had thought. In fact she was a shallow hateful person. She told me multiple times that my age wasn’t right for her, that I complained too much, I said “What” too much. All of these things didn’t make me mad, they made me realize how shallow she was. They made me realize that even though I had sacrificed some of my “perfect woman” ideas, she had not and would not do the same for me.
In the “real” relationships I have had, I learned a few things about myself. I learned that once trust is gone, it is nearly impossible to get it back. I learned that if you don’t talk about things in a relationship you are doomed. I learned to not talk to ex’s. I can’t call what me and this girl had a relationship, but I did learn a few things. Things like, don’t fall for someone if you are just their rebound guy, don’t stick around if thing continually fall apart, don’t think just because things move fast everything is alright. I would have to say the biggest thing I learned is that I am the type of person that wants a relationship, not just a “friend“.